Simplify, simplify, simplify, as Thoreau said. The site will still be here, and all of us will still be here. Do what you need to, find work, find a new sanctuary, we will still be here rooting for you.

I'll tell you what...You'll have to come to terms with everything at your own pace, in your own space.
Being one who just opened a new business, moved to a new place, created a new station in Life, AND newly quit smoking, I can tell you sometimes it all feels like it's all F*****G coming down around you!!!

When it feels like this, only One Thing to remember...It's Not.

My advice: Take a step back, know you have friends & family who care and can be ok with you having a moment. Give yourself the credit you deserve for doing what you just did. Do you realize how many people in the world are scared shitless to even attempt to do what you've done?
Be proud.

The funniest, or most ironic thing I just realized.....You've embodied the true American Spirit, more than most Americans ever will!!!
LOL!!!!!
And people ask me why I like Canadians so much. :P

Welcome to America!

Oh yeah, one more thing. You're in California Steph, it's all good.

George

Thanks guys :)

I keep cutting back what I can... the site (a bit), no longer doing a paper for a conference, putting off grad school another year, staying here with convenient housing as long as I can, no music or dance or choir, not travelling much in the area, not even cooking... I don't know what else to simplify :(

There has NOT been a lot of support for you in Chris' family except for one lone aunt. You and Chris were stupid to throw the children up in the middle of your skanky site, and that will never be forgotten. Now he is thrusting you into the faces of family members who are disgusted with you and your actions. No one wants to be fodder for your musings nor entertainment for your members. You have no right mentioning the children at all, nor pondering where they may "end up".

And no, Steph does not embody true American Spirit. Ignorant, pushy, child-endangering girls intent on prancing around naked to compensate for their low self-esteem is the last thing this country needs.

Vaya con dios!

You lost all credibility with the family ages ago. You've already made it clear that you won't discuss this with Chris like an adult, so please keep your rants and lies off my site.

- deleted post and banned -

I relize this person has been banned but I would like to find them and kick them in a painful place.

Take a number, refreshments will be served after the main event...

Really, to take the time and go out of your way to register and everything, with the only purpose being the chance to hurt someone. It’s pretty sad.

I had problems handling stress. I was told to keep a journal of stressful events and how I felt, what my concerns were at the time. one year later we went back and read the journal. thing that really bothered me then turned out to be inconsequential. Set realistic goals and follow a sound and logical path, everything will work out just fine.
squid
ps.
If chris has custody issues it is best to seperate your relationship with chris and your site from the childern as much as posible. lawyers can make anything look awfull.

Steph,
Welcome to my country! We love having you here. You are artistic, intelligent, humorous, beautiful and kind. This guy does NOT represent what most of my people think or feel. I have gone to your homeland many times and I never felt unwelcomed or mistreated. I want the same for you here. You have love and respect in New York, I can tell you that.
As for the personal situation, families are always so complicated. My girlfriend's parents divorced when she was 7, so she has two dads and three moms (her dad gets around). I just have my dad. The adjustment to her family circus is never ending. But you do learn to adjust and if you love someone enough, it is worth the effort. And besides, in your life, Chris' aunt is awesome, always think of that when it gets rough.
Diggerjohn

Shut your fucking face, you intolerant piece of shit. asta55 and anyone else who wants to kick Steph when she's down can choke on my fat, hairy dick. Holy fuck, some people are just so fucking rude.

*ahem*

Steph, I hope the rocky road gets better from here. We all know what a caring, loving and honest person you are. I believe that in time, Chris's family will accept you into their lives. *hugs*

Marg

Do not think I can add to what has been said. You have a lot of peope around you who care. Just do your thing and they will still be here. You have a lot of good things coming your way, just be Steph.

...Girls prancing around, intent on getting naked is Exactly what this country needs!!!

Hey Steph, just in case you were too busy to notice, what with packing, moving, premiering the new site, graduating, and all the other stuff you had to concentrate on, just a reminder.
There are people in America who are still afraid of sex, and the female form.

And yes, you do indeed embody the spirit of this country, and its people. Well, except for that wacko. :P

.: G :.

Sucks for you that you're completely powerless in this situation, huh?

Goddamnit, that was sposed to be a reply to asta...takes on totally different meaning otherwise :(

I had ro reread the last 3x couldn't believe you where saying that to steph... lol
totaly different meaning... oooppps

Haha yeah that's what I was afraid of :O